I love Christmas! Always have, always will. I love the tinsel and baubles, the Christmas trees, the carols, the candles, the Midnight Mass, the nativity plays – in short, everything about Christmas. No other celebration has caught my imagination in the same way. Easter comes close, but I never really understood it, especially the difficult bits in Holy Week. No, no, no…..Christmas takes the cake (if you’ll excuse the humour).
I especially love the gifts – the giving and receiving – but more than that, the wrapping; bright, colourful paper lovingly tied with beautiful ribbon, all shiny and bright. I always felt that the
quality of the wrapping reflected the love with which the gift was given, and I took great care in choosing only the best paper and ribbon with which to wrap my gifts. I still remember one Christmas when my older brother gave me my present wrapped up in brown paper tied with string. I was not impressed. It contained a book, which ended up behind the tree, out of sight, and was eventually relegated to the top shelf of my book case. To be frank, it was never opened, let alone read.
Then I experienced the worst Christmas of my life. I had been involved in a very nasty car accident, and ended up in hospital with serious injuries that took months to heal. During that time, as I languished in traction and bandages, I did a lot of praying. But it seemed that my prayers only bounced off the ceiling back at me. I tried to picture Jesus, but all I could think of was the baby in the manger, surrounded by fluffy white lambs and a soft angelic light. Not very helpful at all. I mean, what can a baby do in my circumstances? It was all very depressing.
Then I received a visit from the hospital Chaplain. I found myself weeping on her shoulder, and lamenting my unanswered prayers to the baby Jesus.
“You know, he did grow up.” she said.
“I know that, but it doesn’t help. All I can think of is this beautiful child in the manger. It doesn’t seem to be enough.”
“Being born in a stable isn’t exactly sweetness and light – have you ever thought of that?” she said.
I had to admit that I hadn’t.
“Stables are dirty and smelly, – not the most salubrious place to give birth. And you have to remember that King Herod was after the child’s blood, so that the family had to make a run for it into Egypt. Also Jesus came at a time when infant mortality was high, life expectancy short, and into a country occupied by a ruthless regime. All you had to do was look sideways at the authorities and you could be crucified – which is exactly what happened to him.”
“But where does this leave me?” I wailed.
“Well,” she said, “let’s look at it this way. It’s Christmas, and we give and receive lots of presents. But what’s more important, the gift or the wrapping?”
“The gift, of course.” I replied confidently. But then I thought about my brother’s present which I had never even looked at, because I couldn’t see the love for the plainness of the paper.
“I think……” I went on, “I think I haven’t wanted to see any of that other stuff about Jesus, probably because it’s kind of wrapped up in tatty brown paper and string.” And I went on to tell her about my brother’s gift.
“That’s a good analogy.” she said. “Do you think that you’re going through a ‘brown-paper-and-string’ time here? I mean, things aren’t exactly shining and colourful for you at present.”
“When I think about it, I suppose you’re right.” I said.
“Perhaps then it would be good for you to see Jesus beyond all the tinsel and trimmings, and picture yourself receiving the badly wrapped gift, recognising that, despite appearances, it has been given in deep and perfect love. Do you think you could do that?”
I said that I would try. Then we prayed together, and for the first time in my life I began to see the wonder of the gift that surpassed everything I could ever wrap around it. This Jesus, far from being the sweet baby in the manger, was somebody who had grown up to experience what I was experiencing – the ‘brown-paper-and-string’ times – and was able to carry me through it in love. It changed my whole outlook, so that I was able to bear the pain and isolation better, even with joy.
I eventually healed enough to go home. One of the first things I did was take my brother’s gift off the top shelf, dust it off and open it. I read the inscription on the fly leaf: ‘To Anne, with love, from Joshua’, and in brackets, ‘Your Loving Big Brother’. I then poured myself a cup of tea, made myself comfortable, and began to read ‘The Diary of Anne Frank’ for the first time.
©Rev’d. Sr. Sandra Sears CSBC
20th December 2016
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- The Feather
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- A Question of Survival
- The Real Deal – A Christmas Story
- What Christmas is all about
- Woman Caught in Adultery
- Breaking of the Bread
- From Saul to Paul
- Desperate Measures
- When Sarah Laughed and Danced
- My Lucky Day
- Just a Lick of Paint
- Invitation to the Dance
- A Cocky’s Tale
- The Dinosaur in the Manger
- The Ringmaster
- Of Corsets and Stays
- Woman at the Well
- Any Old Iron
- The Box
- All Wrapped Up
- A Kelpie Christmas Tale
- The Third Wise Man
- Reminiscences of a wise man
- Prodigal Son
- The Banquet
- The Coming – A Christmas story
- The Innkeeper
- The Knocking